padawanbutterfingers

been singing lullabies the whole night, but the funny thing is that i feel more awake than ever. i suck at singing lullabies. i can't do the whole soothing, calming voice thing. i keep breaking into a operatic bel canto belt. i sure it could break a lot of glass and make babies cry.

i learnt a new word: Oekaki! i've been doing Oekaki! drawings these few days, and Odin and Sara's one of them. perhaps i shall do an Oekaki! drawing of my object of sick infatuation, who is about a hundred years older than me. okay, he's 30 years older. i do NOT like him for his money, fame or looks, like what M and N says. i like him for his mind and genius. why doesn't anyone understand this?

i did a pencil portrait of myself a few weeks ago when i was down with acute tonsillitis, but now that i'm well i don't feel like painting it because i just don't want to revisit the physical and emotional pain i was going through then. so i'll leave it aside until my next bout of tonsillitis which i hope will never come. other than that i got hired as a teacher at a nearby primary school, but not as an art teacher which is sad. i hate teaching math, i'm terrified of making a mistake like i always do at math. 1 + 1 = 3? i also need to learn italian or at least learn how to sound italian when i sing because my vocal teacher says my italian a